Welcoming Prayer
Welcoming Prayer
Sermon
preached by the Rev. Lowell E. Grisham, Rector
St.
Paul's Episcopal Church, Fayetteville, Arkansas
November
1, 2015; All Saints' Day, Year B
Episcopal
Revised Common Lectionary
(John 11:32-44) When Mary came where Jesus was and saw him,
she knelt at his feet and said to him, "Lord, if you had been here, my
brother would not have died." When Jesus saw her weeping, and the Jews who
came with her also weeping, he was greatly disturbed in spirit and deeply
moved. He said, "Where have you laid him?" They said to him,
"Lord, come and see." Jesus began to weep. So the Jews said,
"See how he loved him!" But some of them said, "Could not he who
opened the eyes of the blind man have kept this man from dying?"
Then
Jesus, again greatly disturbed, came to the tomb. It was a cave, and a stone
was lying against it. Jesus said, "Take away the stone." Martha, the
sister of the dead man, said to him, "Lord, already there is a stench
because he has been dead four days." Jesus said to her, "Did I not
tell you that if you believed, you would see the glory of God?" So they
took away the stone. And Jesus looked upward and said, "Father, I thank
you for having heard me. I knew that you always hear me, but I have said this
for the sake of the crowd standing here, so that they may believe that you sent
me." When he had said this, he cried with a loud voice, "Lazarus,
come out!" The dead man came out, his hands and feet bound with strips of
cloth, and his face wrapped in a cloth. Jesus said to them, "Unbind him,
and let him go."
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Samuel Isaac Joseph Schereschewsky of Lithuania was studying
to become a rabbi when he became captured by the story of Jesus. He eventually migrated
to the U.S., became an Episcopalian and graduated from my school, the General
Theological Seminary, in 1859.
Right after seminary he was moved by a call for helpers in
China. He had a gift for languages, and on the boat to Shanghai he learned to
write Chinese. During his ministry in China he translated the Bible and parts
of the Prayer Book into Mandarin. In 1877 he was elected Bishop of Shanghai. He
founded St. John's University in Shanghai and translated the Bible and other
works into the Wenli language. But he was stricken with paralysis and had to
resign from serving as bishop in 1883.
From then until his death 23 years later in 1906,
Schereschewsky persevered in his translation work, typing some 2,000 pages with
the middle finger of his partially crippled hand. Here's the sentence about him
that I found unforgettable, spoken four years before his death. He said, "I
have sat in this chair for over twenty years. It seemed very hard at first. But
God knew best. He kept me for the work for which I am best fitted." [i]
How did he get there? How did he come to such a place of
acceptance and peace?
Today is All Saints' Day when we celebrate those holy people
who have been the light of Christ in their day, and tomorrow on All Souls Day
we remember everyone who has been created in the image and likeness of God.
I've got a theory about saints. As I look at the stories of those whom we look
to as examples of whole and holy life, there is a quality I see that I want to
imitate and adopt. Bishop Shereschewsky is a fine example of what I want to
talk about. It is a quality of living with a deep interior acceptance of the
circumstances and reality of life, placing that reality within the expansive
presence of God, and then simply being who you are with faith and courage.
Nelson Mandela accepted the injustice of his incarceration
on Robben Island without bitterness, refusing to hate his captors or plan revenge;
instead, he invited guards to eavesdrop on the classes he organized for his
fellow prisoners, saying that the oppressors also needed to grow and learn in
order to be liberated from their captivity in an oppressive system. He embraced
his reality and placed it within the infinite, liberating power of God.
There is a practice that comes out of the Centering Prayer
movement called "The Welcoming Prayer." It is a way of extending the
practice of Centering Prayer when we gently let go of thoughts and afflictive
emotions, returning ever so gently to the Sacred Word. The Welcoming Prayer is
a form of taking that practice into active, everyday life. It's something you
can do when your buttons get pushed.
Most of us have pretty predictable patterns when our buttons
get pushed. Something happens, frustration builds, and emotional energy churns
inside of us. Usually what we do with that emotion is to start some internal
dialogue, we play some well worn tapes of outrage or hurt. "I can't believe
what he just said. Outrageous. It's just wrong. He ought to be ashamed. I'm
outraged." There seems to be an infinite supply of commentary in our emotional
bucket. It's just like pouring gasoline on a fire.
It gets even worse if we add guilt or repression to all of
that and try to push it down into our subconscious. "I'm going to ignore
that. It doesn't really hurt. I'm a good person; I'm not going to retaliate."
But your stomach is churning and your jaw is clinched. And that bodily reaction
may be a key to our liberation.
Here's the Welcoming Prayer process. As soon as you can
possibly become aware of the initial frustration, focus on whatever sensation
in your body accompanies the emotional reaction. Sink into the bodily upset.
Maybe your back aches or your jaw tightens. Is your breath short? Or you feel a
little dizzy? Feel the adrenaline prompting the impulse to "fight, fly, or
freeze."
Just stay with the bodily reaction. Sink into it. Don't try
to change anything, just be with it.
Important: Don't analyze your feelings or your body's
reaction. Getting back into your mind just gets your ego hooked again. The key
is to become physically aware of the emotional energy as sensations in your
body. Ground yourself into whatever physical sensation you are experiencing.
Here is the second step where the prayer gets its name. As you are focused on the whole broiling physical
sensation of your upset, very gently, ever so gently, welcome the emotion,
whatever the emotion is. If you feel anger, "Welcome, anger." Or, "Welcome,
outrage." "Welcome, pain." Create an inner atmosphere hospitality.
Whenever you embrace the afflictive emotion you actually disarm it. Yes, it is
a paradox, but it works.
Cynthia Bourgeault who teaches this method tells about a
fantasy novel that illustrates the teaching.
A young wizard named
Ged is in training to become a sorcerer. One day, horsing around with his
friends, he inadvertently conjures up a minor demon. The demon proceeds to
haunt him throughout the book. As he grows in power and influence, it grows
right with him. Gradually (the demon) turns very dark and begins to stalk him;
he flees in terror. He runs to a city by the sea, but it follows him there. He
hires a boat and rows out into the sea, but it follows him there. Finally he
jumps into the water, but the thing is still right on his back. Finally, with
all escape routes blocked, he does the only thing left to him: He turns to the
demon and embraces it. At which point it vanishes, integrated back inside him
as the shadow he is finally willing to own. [ii]
Accepting the reality of the present moment is the quality
we see in Joseph Schereschewsky, Nelson Mandela and all of the great saints.
Staying present in the now, regardless of the physical or psychological
content, embracing and accepting that reality allows our awareness to expand to
release the conflicting energy into the infinite hands of the divine. God is
always fully present in the now.
One caution about acceptance. It is the feelings you welcome
and accept. It is not a general condoning of the situation. If the doctor says,
"It may be malignant," it is the fear of cancer that is on your
plate. Not "Welcome, cancer," but "Welcome, fear."
The passivity of acceptance is an inner attitude. Your inner
acceptance of your feelings can release energy for you then to decide what you
will do in the outer world, which might require a spirited fight.
When you stay present within your body, observing the
conflictive emotions and your bodily reaction, simply accepting them in the
present moment, the negative energy is released for to be used good. German
mystic Jacob Boehme described it this way, "If you remain firm, if you do
not bend, you shall see and perceive great wonders. You will discover how
Christ will storm the hell in you and will break your beasts…" [iii]
The Welcoming Prayer practice is helpful not only times of
afflictive emotions, it is also helpful in moments Cynthia calls "peacock
feathers." She was coming home
after a particularly satisfying eucharist, when she heard an inner voice ask,
"What do you really want in this
moment? God or self-congratulation?" Ugh. So she focused on where this
feeling of self-satisfaction was living in her body, then began, "Welcome,
pride, welcome pride…" She says that's actually harder than "welcome,
loneliness" or "welcome, anger." But she felt the inner
territory shift, moving from self-satisfaction into a deeper equanimity. [iv]
So I hope I've been able to give you a small trick of the
saints. The skill and practice of breaking the cycle of afflictive emotions by
paying attention to the reaction in your body and welcoming the accompanying feelings.
Try it the next time your button gets pushed. Practice now to live better in
the present, but practice also to be ready for the day when it's something
bigger than a button. "I have sat in this chair for over twenty years. It
seemed very hard at first. But God knew best. He kept me for the work for which
I am best fitted."
[i]
Holy Women, Holy Men, p. 636. His
feast day is October 14
[ii]
Bourgeault, Centering Prayer and Inner
Awakening, p. 145, Lanham, MD: Cowley, 2004; describing the book A Wizard of Earthsea by Ursula Le Guin,
New York: Bantam Book, 1989.
[iii]
Quoted in Bourgeault, p. 149, from Boehme, The
Way to Christ, tras. Peter Erb (Mahwh, NJ: Paulist Press, 1978), p. 240.
[iv]
Bourgeault, p. 150
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